Why can't I reach the Lord?

[DailyCorvid]

If a qualified health professional, from a local charity - assessed that they could safely visit you at your home, would you be willing to allow that? Seems to be the case that God has a lot of His people in place who could come and help you out, and has provided you with me to smooth that process over. I have been in contact with a few charities this week for your case, though I don't know exactly where you are - they are up and down the country. These are people who can offer you practical regular help.

What I am hearing from these qualified highly experienced professionals - is that they have the expertise to assess your home for risk and if they find that there is insufficient risk then they would be more than happy to come in and start visiting you. And the goal would be to start helping you with these health problems you have, to make your actual life easier on you. When I asked what are the sorts of cases they would refuse to enter into somebodies house to help them: They said you would basically have to be offering them a physical threat of violence, or directly endangering them in some way. They said there is virtually no health specific reason for them to stay away past you just barring entry yourself. They said they were visiting hundreds of people who had COVID during the initial outbreak, and have the required training and equipment to manage this easily.

But it all hinges upon you actually giving them the "ok".

 

[Glen07]

If a qualified health professional, from a local charity - assessed that they could safely visit you at your home, would you be willing to allow that? Seems to be the case that God has a lot of His people in place who could come and help you out, and has provided you with me to smooth that process over. I have been in contact with a few charities this week for your case, though I don't know exactly where you are - they are up and down the country. These are people who can offer you practical regular help.

What I am hearing from these qualified highly experienced professionals - is that they have the expertise to assess your home for risk and if they find that there is insufficient risk then they would be more than happy to come in and start visiting you. And the goal would be to start helping you with these health problems you have, to make your actual life easier on you. When I asked what are the sorts of cases they would refuse to enter into somebodies house to help them: They said you would basically have to be offering them a physical threat of violence, or directly endangering them in some way. They said there is virtually no health specific reason for them to stay away past you just barring entry yourself. They said they were visiting hundreds of people who had COVID during the initial outbreak, and have the required training and equipment to manage this easily.

But it all hinges upon you actually giving them the "ok".

I once used to struggle to attend a small church, the one I rewired, 20-odd years ago and while I was there a message came to me through someone there that the Lord didn't want formal prayers which were pre-written, so I just tell him what I need to, respectfully of course. And as for Bible study I think in my case I would most likely need to choose an important subject like faith, or deliverance, and then try and find out how many chapters and verses deal with it, that's how I learned most of what I know about electronics, I would look up a subject that I needed to learn about at that time as I just couldn't learn much any other way, but whether it would work with the Bible I don't know, but it's worked for me with other stuff in the past. And at that church they used to let the Lord intervene when He wanted to and in my experience that's the kind of church service that gets results. And far too many don't and just stick to their fixed programme and that shuts God out which is no good and I've witnessed that too where there was plenty people attending but no sign of the Holy Spirit which is no good as it provides no help at all. So do you know of any online stuff I could possibly download to help with Bible study and searching scripture, as we can't all attend Bible college.

I don't know about in the future but certainly at this time I cannot let anyone visit me at home, and I can't visit anyone either because of the danger, I would have to be thoroughly certain that I as well as my home were cleansed of this wretched virus and only the Lord up above can do that, the problem is me being able to reach Him like never before and then being able to properly receive help from Him just like other Christians. And besides in my place there's nowhere to sit and I can't provide any hospitality and I can't even offer a brew as I don't keep either tea or coffee as I can only drink water. And the house is an appalling mess and needs a lot of big stuff clearing out but it will be infected now so I'm stuck with it for now at least. The main aim now has to be reaching out to God and getting close with Him like countless others do. And that's made far harder by being in an almost constant foul state of mind because of the hideous evil corrupt spirit and the isolation it and now the virus are causing and that's why I need a nice civilised Christian lady to chat to, and chat is all I can offer I'm afraid, and it would have to be remote. And it would need someone at nearer my own level too, i.e. a total lack of status, not someone way out of my league, that's all there is at stupid useless dating sites, it's always all elite professional classes so I stopped trying to use them way back and besides almost every woman would want almost everything I can't provide anyway, that's always been a major problem all along which is why I've never got talking to any who in the past have tried to get my attention, I've had to just ignore them, and the best time was in the late 90's and early 2000's when I was 30-odd, I could hardly go outside anywhere without several of them trying it on, and two of them even found out where I lived and kept walking back and forth past my home, but it was all in vain as none of them could've known what dreadful problems lay unseen, and they would all have been far too used to total freedom and being able to do whatever they wanted, and besides I doubt very much if any of them were even remotely Christian, and I can only be such an appalling example with so many appalling restrictions, just like being stuck in some kind of extreme form of prison where the staff can control well nigh everything that happens to me and keep me in a state of constant entrapment. And all manner of different women used to try it on, even Asians, even those all dressed up in their traditional costumes and out with their mothers, I've never had any problem attracting their attention but only found it impossible to communicate as whenever any tried anything I'd be just thinking what possible remotely positive stuff can I tell her? Especially as they'd most likely want to go out to some rowdy madhouse in the evening which I can't and won't, or else they'd want their sex which I also couldn't offer, and they'd expect to be able to move in with me and possibly have kids, and believe me I know all too well what a seriously strong feeling that is, I've never known such an immensely strong feeling like getting broody, it must be the strongest feeling in the world and certainly the most natural, and when I was younger you'd never in a million years ever think that would ever happen to me as I absolutely couldn't stand kids as they were just another source of absolute torture, but then one day in july 1997 I suddenly received a powerful healing while on a bus and then I knew just how absolutely real God is and how He can heal the otherwise totally incurable. And shortly afterwards I got to know several folk who had lots of lovely little pre-schoolers including one couple who had nine kids in both sides of a semi-detached council house and their little ones used to love sitting with me and spending hours of quality time with me and I never known anyone so thoroughly loving as little ones are. And I started getting loads of friendly greetings from little ones everywhere so I must have some degree of the Holy Spirit, and that's possibly what got me such attention from women, and I got whistled at several times and even followed by some.

Hi, If you can’t tell by my handle my names Glen. Anyway, I speak with Daily quite often. I wanted to meet you bro. Just offer some friendship and some fellowship. I don’t know what platforms you use but something like discord might be a good place to start. I willing to try most things but I’m a little tech technologically challenged . Anyway if you’re interested in a small Christian chat room with good folks ask Daily for the discord link. I’m sure he would be pleased to give it a to you. It’s a great place maybe to get away from the like struggles and just speak to people about the Lord or anything really. Plus there is the ability to have private conversations if you want to speak about your difficulties. The main chat isn’t always the best place to unload all of that stuff but for friendship and fellowship it’s a great place to start. I’m close to 60 so we probably have some things in common because we are in the same age group. God bless you and if you have other options to chat I’m willing to try most anything.

 

[Glen07]

Hi, If you can’t tell by my handle my names Glen. Anyway, I speak with Daily quite often. I wanted to meet you bro. Just offer some friendship and some fellowship. I don’t know what platforms you use but something like discord might be a good place to start. I willing to try most things but I’m a little tech technologically challenged . Anyway if you’re interested in a small Christian chat room with good folks ask Daily for the discord link. I’m sure he would be pleased to give it a to you. It’s a great place maybe to get away from the like struggles and just speak to people about the Lord or anything really. Plus there is the ability to have private conversations if you want to speak about your difficulties. The main chat isn’t always the best place to unload all of that stuff but for friendship and fellowship it’s a great place to start. I’m close to 60 so we probably have some things in common because we are in the same age group. God bless you and if you have other options to chat I’m willing to try most anything.

Sorry about the punctuation errors the mistakes I can’t type so I use voice to chat quite a bit

 

[Desperate62]

If a qualified health professional, from a local charity - assessed that they could safely visit you at your home, would you be willing to allow that? Seems to be the case that God has a lot of His people in place who could come and help you out, and has provided you with me to smooth that process over. I have been in contact with a few charities this week for your case, though I don't know exactly where you are - they are up and down the country. These are people who can offer you practical regular help.

What I am hearing from these qualified highly experienced professionals - is that they have the expertise to assess your home for risk and if they find that there is insufficient risk then they would be more than happy to come in and start visiting you. And the goal would be to start helping you with these health problems you have, to make your actual life easier on you. When I asked what are the sorts of cases they would refuse to enter into somebodies house to help them: They said you would basically have to be offering them a physical threat of violence, or directly endangering them in some way. They said there is virtually no health specific reason for them to stay away past you just barring entry yourself. They said they were visiting hundreds of people who had COVID during the initial outbreak, and have the required training and equipment to manage this easily.

But it all hinges upon you actually giving them the "ok".

Hi, what can I say? This virus is nothing remotely like covid, covid can be sanitised, washed away, why do you think so many folk were using sanitisers during the pandemic, and shops and supermarkets were providing sanitiser stations? But THIS one that I've got CANNOT be simply washed or wiped off, go and read up on it like I did, the information is provided by qualified health professionals who clearly state that it's incurable and cannot be simply sanitised, and it infects surfaces, which I know from experience. It cannot be sanitised by stuff like Dettol, or any household cleaners, or any of the professional stuff like they use in hospitals either, so that's why I'm having to keep everyone out, even folk I've known longest of all, for their own safety, and the safety of others, because I care, you can't be Christian and not care. There's enough risk when I have to go out to get food and other supplies, I have to take precautions like contactless payment, contactless bus pass etc. but I can't totally prevent it spreading, so all I can do is pray for everyone who might be affected, including folk I'll never see, and those like the bin men who collect my refuse for instance, and anyone who might touch the bags and bin while they're out there on the public footpath, and you can't detect it with any gadgets either, so you don't know what's safe, and what isn't. And therefore my home and fixtures, and appliances, and possessions etc. are highly likely to be infected. And I'm constantly at risk too as I can't stop having to cook, and eat, drink and use the bog, and change, and wash, and do the laundry, shave, clean my teeth etc. I'd have to be DEAD to stop doing any such things, and I cannot visit anyone else any more either, believe me it's a real nightmare scenario only the Lord can deal with, and I've also got other major problems that I've had for decades, let's not forget them, why do you think I'm trying to be Christian? but hardly getting anywhere and not having anything like the life changing experience that other Christians have and why not when I desperately NEED it? And the other night I saw an old recording of Billy Graham preaching and he said that we must be changed, not like me, but how? And the only stuff that can even begin to sanitise this virus is a chemical far too deadly to supply to Joe public, 90% ethanol, extremely volatile and most likely far too toxic too.

 

[DailyCorvid]

Yes I understand, HPV is not like Covid - but in terms of contagion, the effect is the same and that's what we are talking about here. Can somebody come in to help you, and you said you wouldn't be happy with them risking contamination. So if that risk was managed, presumably you would and they could come in and provide support for you.

I asked you before; "If a medically trained professional who deals with this sort of thing regularly, was happy to manage that risk - would you then agree to allow them to visit you?" and we should establish this first. I ask because it is important to your being healed.

Obviously you can't just be on your own forever - at some point you should allow help to reach you. No point asking God to help you but then refusing to let the help get through your door after all. In Matthew 8, Jesus heals a Leper. But notice in that parable, the Leper physically went and searched for him despite Lepers are supposed to stay out of the sun. So the Leper went out of his way to find God for healing, and God recognised the effort he had gone to; and healed him his Leprosy.

This parable was so important, that Jesus actually repeats it again in Mark in exactly the same way. The sentiment is : God helps those whom first will help themselves. That is two things : firstly showing willingness to accept God's command, and secondly anointing - pouring out God's wisdom over your life. When you do those two things Jesus will give you anything you require and you shall have been healed through faith.

If you wish to hear me read you this parable from Mark in full, here is the video :

 

[Desperate62]

Hi, If you can’t tell by my handle my names Glen. Anyway, I speak with Daily quite often. I wanted to meet you bro. Just offer some friendship and some fellowship. I don’t know what platforms you use but something like discord might be a good place to start. I willing to try most things but I’m a little tech technologically challenged . Anyway if you’re interested in a small Christian chat room with good folks ask Daily for the discord link. I’m sure he would be pleased to give it a to you. It’s a great place maybe to get away from the like struggles and just speak to people about the Lord or anything really. Plus there is the ability to have private conversations if you want to speak about your difficulties. The main chat isn’t always the best place to unload all of that stuff but for friendship and fellowship it’s a great place to start. I’m close to 60 so we probably have some things in common because we are in the same age group. God bless you and if you have other options to chat I’m willing to try most anything.

Hi, Glen, I don't use so-called "social" media as it's far too elitist and in my experience far too condescending and anti-social. The only platform I'm a member of is this one and you tube, and I've posted a reply to DC above about the virus so you can see what the situation is. And I don't do group activities as it would only be far too brutal for me like I had to tell the disability welfare authorities several years ago, I can only chat one to one and then only with someone very quiet natured and in a quiet setting. And I suffer with dreadful personality problems too because of a hideously evil demon spirit which I've had forced on me since infancy which absolutely hates me.

 

[Desperate62]

Yes I understand, HPV is not like Covid - but in terms of contagion, the effect is the same and that's what we are talking about here. Can somebody come in to help you, and you said you wouldn't be happy with them risking contamination. So if that risk was managed, presumably you would and they could come in and provide support for you.

I asked you before; "If a medically trained professional who deals with this sort of thing regularly, was happy to manage that risk - would you then agree to allow them to visit you?" and we should establish this first. I ask because it is important to your being healed.

Obviously you can't just be on your own forever - at some point you should allow help to reach you. No point asking God to help you but then refusing to let the help get through your door after all. In Matthew 8, Jesus heals a Leper. But notice in that parable, the Leper physically went and searched for him despite Lepers are supposed to stay out of the sun. So the Leper went out of his way to find God for healing, and God recognised the effort he had gone to; and healed him his Leprosy.

This parable was so important, that Jesus actually repeats it again in Mark in exactly the same way. The sentiment is : God helps those whom first will help themselves. That is two things : firstly showing willingness to accept God's command, and secondly anointing - pouring out God's wisdom over your life. When you do those two things Jesus will give you anything you require and you shall have been healed through faith.

If you wish to hear me read you this parable from Mark in full, here is the video :

How come so much stuff in the Scripture is always so obvious to just about anyone except me?! When I try and read it I struggle to understand a lot of it unlike them on the Christian TV channels who are always so intellectual and always so expert, and it doesn't all come from fancy elite education either, so much stuff that should be obvious is far too often withheld from me. And keeping everyone out is a matter of conscience too, I have to think not only of the person(s) visiting but anyone close to them and anyone else they might touch, directly or otherwise. But if they're thoroughly certain that the Lord will protect not only them but anyone else they have contact with then they must take responsibility for the risk they are taking. And of course I especially care about kids! So who do you have in mind to possibly visit me? And I cannot visit a church or anyone else's home in this awful state either as it's far too big a risk. Believe me my home is a serious hazchem case. And if anyone did come what could they do, and how can anyone "manage" such a risk? And how can I help myself?

 

[DailyCorvid]

I have been in touch with a few Christian charities - and they have specially trained professional support agents. These are people who are only interested in visiting the most difficult cases (such as yours where you are concerned about contagion but also hesitant because of social reasons). They spent 100% of their time training for those situations and those people, so that they can give you really great support and guidance when they finally see you. That was who I was thinking of, though there is no rush. When you're feeling up to it - I really do believe in those kindly souls and the work they do for us. Even just a single visit would do so much good for you, and really accelerate your solution reaching you.

God has a plan for you, and that plan involves other people. And even though it's kind of a scary thought to you, I think you should put your trust in the Lord - if He sends help to your door, take a deep breath and let the Lord work wonders in your life through His sent helpers. You will be so glad you did I can tell you!

Oh and the Scripture thing, I reckon if you spend regular time reading Scripture or watching people read it to you - you would come to understand it so much more. You are clearly a very intelligent man, I don't care what anybody says or if you deny this. From this conversation alone I can see that, and you have resilience to suffer this for 38 years as well as courage to be talking about it to me. There is so much in you, that you can put into this world, all it will take is a little helping hand. So let's get that sorted, I think God has led us here to sort this solution out.

I mean even Glen appearing, he is retired now but he was an engineer -(nope he was a different type of wrench carrying fix-thing guy). I am such a technophobe!! Glen is also around the same age, and has health concerns that he relies upon God for. And you said you wanted a softly spoken calm person to talk to, just before he turns up. I don't believe in coincidences

 

[Glen07]

Hi, Glen, I don't use so-called "social" media as it's far too elitist and in my experience far too condescending and anti-social. The only platform I'm a member of is this one and you tube, and I've posted a reply to DC above about the virus so you can see what the situation is. And I don't do group activities as it would only be far too brutal for me like I had to tell the disability welfare authorities several years ago, I can only chat one to one and then only with someone very quiet natured and in a quiet setting. And I suffer with dreadful personality problems too because of a hideously evil demon spirit which I've had forced on me since infancy which absolutely hates me

Hi, Glen, I don't use so-called "social" media as it's far too elitist and in my experience far too condescending and anti-social. The only platform I'm a member of is this one and you tube, and I've posted a reply to DC above about the virus so you can see what the situation is. And I don't do group activities as it would only be far too brutal for me like I had to tell the disability welfare authorities several years ago, I can only chat one to one and then only with someone very quiet natured and in a quiet setting. And I suffer with dreadful personality problems too because of a hideously evil demon spirit which I've had forced on me since infancy which absolutely hates me.

well I know a little about illness as I’ve been pretty sick for about 22 years now. I chose not to focus on that most of the time though not without difficulty. It beats on me 24/7. I’m sure I can’t understand how isolated you must feel though. I certainly don’t have all the answers either but I know that I had no peace until I just put everything in Gods hands. That didn’t make my health get better but it gave me the peace to endure. I’m just trying to be a friend to you. I am pretty patient and there isn’t much you could ever say that I would get offended by. I was a power lineman for 33 years so I am used to being around some pretty tough and relentless people. anyway I was thinking discord just because of the fact you would be able to have one on one conversation with anyone of us. Think about it bro and God bless you.

 

[Glen07]

Also I’m in the states so if I don’t respond fairly quickly it’s probably time difference and I’ve got really bad insomnia so most of the time I sleep when I can.

 

[Desperate62]

Yes I understand, HPV is not like Covid - but in terms of contagion, the effect is the same and that's what we are talking about here. Can somebody come in to help you, and you said you wouldn't be happy with them risking contamination. So if that risk was managed, presumably you would and they could come in and provide support for you.

I asked you before; "If a medically trained professional who deals with this sort of thing regularly, was happy to manage that risk - would you then agree to allow them to visit you?" and we should establish this first. I ask because it is important to your being healed.

Obviously you can't just be on your own forever - at some point you should allow help to reach you. No point asking God to help you but then refusing to let the help get through your door after all. In Matthew 8, Jesus heals a Leper. But notice in that parable, the Leper physically went and searched for him despite Lepers are supposed to stay out of the sun. So the Leper went out of his way to find God for healing, and God recognised the effort he had gone to; and healed him his Leprosy.

This parable was so important, that Jesus actually repeats it again in Mark in exactly the same way. The sentiment is : God helps those whom first will help themselves. That is two things : firstly showing willingness to accept God's command, and secondly anointing - pouring out God's wisdom over your life. When you do those two things Jesus will give you anything you require and you shall have been healed through faith.

If you wish to hear me read you this parable from Mark in full, here is the video :

Hi, I've just read nearly all of Matthew, and I don't think chapter eight is actually a parable but just a basic account of an event, though Jesus did often use parables, most of which are easy enough to understand. And with willingness you've also got to be ABLE, it always seems to me that before I can receive a miracle I first have to somehow make one myself, well how can I? I'm not divine. And there was a time back in the late 90's when as I mentioned previously I managed to receive my first ever powerful miracle, which happened on a bus. And back then until May1997 I used to have to use a personal stereo which played cassettes, remember them? to try and drown out the noise of those around me, but needless to say it was little more than useless, and at that time an Evangelist who I knew back then told me that I had to stop using the walkman and leave it in the church which I did, and about two months later the great miracle happened which in an instant totally transformed how I felt about kids, all of a sudden all their noise, which up until then had been absolute torture, was lovely and I've absolutely adored little ones ever since. But it has a down side to it as it made me seriously broody and it had me in tears loads of times and I'm still broody as a hen now, 28 years on, but that's another story altogether. So was dumping the walkman an act of faith? I've never used one since then and I got rid of all those that I had and I couldn't use such a thing now because it would only get infected just like almost anything else. And if I am going to let anyone visit me just what can they do? I wouldn't recommend anyone laying hands on me for obvious reasons, surely the Lord would understand. And just about anything within reach in my home will be potentially infected, whether it's fixtures, door handles, appliances, fixed as well as portable, sinks, taps, remote controls, phones, this laptop, and it's shelf, mouse, router, printer, cables etc. and a whole range of other stuff, even the flush handle on the bog! So they must seriously realise what they're walking into, remember it's nothing like covid, and the risk is their responsibility. And so I suppose you want my name and address, well that will have to be put in a private message, and I'm easy enough to find as I'm not exactly miles away up a long winding and badly unsurfaced country lane, like some around this borough, I'm right next to a main road which I've lived next to for well over 50 years now, but not in this same house, but I have been here for nearly 40. And once you have my address you can look it up on google maps street view, like I told the insurers if they wanted to check on nearby trees and other stuff. And I've had a look at discord and it looks like I could download it but setting it up and getting it working as well as learning to use it properly and not like a total numpty could take a little longer. And if I do try it, or whatsapp, I hope there's a nice quiet friendly Christian lass somewhere on there, preferably somewhere near here in north west England and preferably a good listener as well as being closer to my level and not some kind of elite professional class, everyone needs someone nearer their own level who they can be on more equal terms with, that's most important, it's no good a totally unemployable and poorly educated numpty like me trying to get friendly with a lawyer, or a doctor or nurse, or a town clerk or accountant etc. and all contact would have to be online only. And I don't want any secular folk visiting as they won't have any of the Lord's protection so they'll be far more at risk of not only catching but spreading the virus.

 

[DailyCorvid]

Hello again! Great you've almost finished Matthew 8 that's a solid start, I am pleased you have done that. Let me answer your questions, which are big indicators of the effort you have applied, God is not far away from you in your mission now. I can tell you (from personal experience) that miracles can be received by even the most faithless sinner with zero religious education; if only that person is truly seeking for God. That was me back when I was an Atheist, I was questioning God from the position of trying to prove He did not exist - and even then He answered my faithless prayer. Because despite everything I was TRULY searching for Him. So for a person such as you who is not a huge big faithless sinner like I was, who is also reading Scripture with humility you are on the pathway to healing now for sure.

To able to receive God, you have to be spiritually seeking Him in a sincere and genuine way. There is no physical requirement at all. You don't need to close your eyes or talk to pray like I did; it is 100% something that comes from out of the depth of your soul, or you might say from your heart's desire. So I would say you are actually doing this now, and you just need to sustain that level of authenticity in prayer.

I was searching for God for ages (I was convinced religion was a lie, and was proving so in my work). But leading up to the miracle I witnessed, I did receive plenty of smaller signs. This was accountable to the yearning I had to find the truth revealed. Even though I was convinced it was not God, He saw what the content of my heart was - and answered the prayer inside of it.

When I came to actual prayer, the Holy Spirit intervened and led my words to make the prayer as powerful as any ever performed. I was surprised at the words I used, because I did not choose them. Such is the way of the Holy Spirit, the physical demand is zero - but the spiritual demand is absolute. So you've done everything required of you to begin, and now if you stick with it - when God is ready and the time is right he will grant you the fullest of your prayer requests. Yes I think leaving your Walkman was an act of faith from you, like a person giving up cigarettes it is equal to that because you sacrificed something human for something Godly, and were rewarded.

I can put you in touch with my team now - If you can get yourself a smartphone to use WhatsApp, or as Glen suggested run the gauntlet of Discord (I joke it's not that bad it's the butt of my jokes but unfairly so). We are a 50/50 male female team, and nobody is above or below any other. We are all equal in the eyes of the Lord. Since you have made such great strides already, we could support you whilst you wait patiently for the Lord.

Can I just say, what a triumph it is that you have read Matthew 8 near to completion, and you are truly seeking God now. It is a blessing to see you doing such things, and to be there as a witness to it. I understand your fear of contagion risk, but I believe that in time - when you receive the fullness of Christ's revealed power in your spirit. you will see that Jesus can cause pure healing for you and protection for those whom He sends to you. Look forward to catching up in person, and appreciate your efforts as far. As to the visit you don't have to provide your address or number to me personally - as the charity I was talking with would be the one sending you an agent.

It would 100% be a Christian who was fully trained and risk assessed to visit you. So they would have put their trust in the Lord to visit you, as well as be supported by their charity. But we can talk about that one-to-one rather than here. I know you would get such a boost from just hearing an actual persons voice who was in your corner. And I feel that God is lining us up to help you out now, since you have been actively helping yourself out too. Bravo.

 

[Desperate62]

Actually I'm not still reading Matthew 8, I've finished all of Matthew and I'm now halfway through Mark. But when I'm reading I can't help thinking I'm not properly taking it in, as without a proper share of the Holy Spirit I just can't remember much, as if I was just plain old secular and only reading it "parrot fashion", just like in an RE lesson in a secular state school. And I'm not getting a supposedly "smart" phone, it would only get infected and ruined and then if it failed I couldn't get it fixed. And besides according to what some born expert smart alecs on you tube say you can set up whatsapp without a phone, but their tutorials are far too fast paced and I find them well nigh impossible to follow and take in because of such appalling learning disability. And not everyone can make me feel better, because of the appalling kind of disabilities I've got forced on me far too many folk can only be just what I don't need, you haven't seen what's happened to me whenever I've tried going to church in the past, the last time was 10 years ago, how I've been so brutally forced out all because of someone there lurching into raucous hysterics, and in the past I've also been just as brutally forced out of shops and stores, and cafes and off buses too, and there's almost nothing I can watch on TV because I just can't stand far too many folk's behaviour so I can't share it. And before all this virus trouble started I started trying to go to cafes a bit more regular and trying to make it an act of faith and at the same time trying to defy the enemy, but then the wretched virus put an end to that. And I found one cafe with really nice civilised staff too but I had to stop going there for the safety of them and their customers and so on. And what I need is an experience like the woman in Mark 5 verse 29 where she experienced the power of healing through her body so that she knew she was healed, I hope the Lord will let me have something similar so that I can be sure I'm safe to be among people as well as go back to being able to eat what I want and to just function more normally again and be far more carefree with stuff like cooking and eating and washing and cleaning and dressing and changing and travelling etc. and be able to work on stuff again, and visit friends again and help them with their work like I've done for decades and do my essential maintenance on my home which is a must but now it's all on hold. And don't forget in this instance it's not just me that needs cleansing but so does all my home and it's contents too because of the appalling contagious risk and I've already caught some lesions from objects, and only the Lord can do such a cleansing. So you can see what an appalling problem this virus is and what appalling consequences it causes and surely the Lord wants me to attend church again and be in proper harmony with the other members as well as getting other lost folk saved. And I used to repair and refurbish loads of old TV sets and VCR's and install wiring and plumbing and I used to go to serious lengths to service and install stuff to proper nationally required standards so that it would be safe, it's not enough just to get stuff working, when you know the job proper there's no excuses for not doing a safe job, and no-one ever saw the long hours I used to spend thoroughly servicing stuff behind closed doors to make it safe and through that work I gained a strong conscience which I just didn't have before. And don't forget my house is a dreadful mess with nowhere to sit, and no hospitality either, I can't offer any such thing with such an appalling health problem.

 

[DailyCorvid]

You are doing great, that's how it should feel when you are reading a book filled with the wisdom of God! Don't expect that full understanding will reach you the instant you first read these things. I still read and re-read every chapter and always find new things I didn't know, or a better understanding. Parrot's have to start somewhere brother! The way you are going about things is absolutely spot on in my opinion.

That's your approach to God you are developing there, through understanding the things He has said to us in Scripture - you will more readily hear his voice. For me, after I had read a few weeks of Scripture and really thought about what I truly desired out of my approach; I was given dream visions. These dream visions painted accurate solutions to my problems, and I was healed soon after. Theses are deep seated issues you have been describing, so I totally understand you are in something of a rush to start getting answers, and get healed. Just have patience with yourself, and keep up this fine work. For me it took a few weeks before I was getting signs, that encouraged me to continue for a few months. At the end of the second month I was seeing tangible healing and my life started turning around. Before the year was out, I was miraculously healed - out of hospital completely and on the road to building my new life.

At that point I left behind every single person in my old life, new people were attracted into my life and I into theirs. And I found the energy I needed to put my house in order, better than it was when I first arrived. I marvelled at the progress I had made, and accepted that I was now born again through the spirit - with my faith increased and my body returned to health. This is what you have in store for you, and much more!

Smart-phones well you don't need one. It would make communication easier, but if you want we can continue on here - or if you have an email account we switch to that (and we can arrange this one-to-one fellowship). But the main thing is, know in your heart; you are doing absolutely everything right. If you carry on doing these things, there is no doubt in my mind you will find your prayers answered in the most amazing of ways.

Mark's Gospel is one of my favourite New Testament books! I think you will love that one, the more you read the better it gets.

 

[Desperate62]

Hi, so what's the next step, I think there's been enough talk on here for now, what should I do next? It looks like stupid whatsapp needs a "smart" phone to set it up no matter how or which way you do it, either that or you have to install a separate software application which I don't want, and I'm not getting a so-called "smart" phone for various reasons, so it looks like discord would be a better option if I can manage to use it anything like properly as I'm such a numpty with fancy modern tech, and I've watched several videos on how to install it and they all look much the same and fairly straightforward which it had better be if I go ahead with it, I don't want it messing up my computer as it must be well infected by now so I couldn't get it fixed, and it's my only internet device. And of course there will be far too insanely long-winded terms and privacy policy etc. which we're all expected to read, and learn regardless of ability, it's always the same, the bigger the company the longer the terms, far too many of them are like an encyclopaedia, far too ludicrously long, so you just have to agree to whatever they say if you want to use their service, and who knows what outrageous terms they have, we can't all be born expert lawyers. And I'm not into group chats either, which I know to be a common thing with some of these fancy "social" media outfits, like I told the dwp with me it's one to one and not with just anyone. So do you want me to try and install discord? I've already written a password for it. And don't you just hate it when you can finally afford something you've always wanted but you still can't have it because of far too many appalling other problems that no amount of money could ever fix. And ever since 1970 I've wanted a small seaworthy boat with an engine, say about four or five metre length, which I could keep on a marina, but look what you've got to be able to do, the marinas won't always let you keep it there, there might be times when they expect you to remove it and you have to do it or else they'll get it done, and get it destroyed, and then send you the bill...so I'd have to be able to drive, with a trailer, and that of course means also being able to work in some fancy elite job to support a vehicle, and of course you must be able to easily handle all the massively demanding commitments involved in owning the vehicle, as well as the job... and I not only can't drive but can't even get a licence to even learn, and I've tried driving away from public roads in the past but only found it FAR too overwhelming, I don't even have the confidence to do any more than about 10 mph! And I can't even ride a bike either as I can't balance on the wretched things. I'm no good with wheels but for some unknown reason I have an unexplained confidence with boats. And I have a small 10 foot inflatable which I used to ride local rivers with when swollen to the right level, about a foot above dry weather level, and, much to the annoyance of the local council beach patrols I also used to take it out on the sea at Blackpool when conditions were right, something I had to learn about, as well as other stuff like lifejackets, and they work, I have two, an inflatable one for the sea and a solid one for rivers and they've both saved me when needed as I had my share of mishaps. And the boat packed into a large zip-up bag along with a couple of pumps and a life jacket and various other accessories and that sat in a big plastic garden trolley with it's metal parts replaced with marine grade stainless. But of course I can't even touch any of my rafting gear now and I miss going on the trips but even long before the virus it soon became only about 1% pleasure and 99% hard work so I packed it in after doing it for about 20 years. And I've rowed all 41 navigable miles of the Lancaster canal, all the way from Tewitfield near Carnforth right down to Preston, and I've rode the river from Barrowford right down to Padiham, about 7 and a half miles and I did it without stopping after two previous attempts.

 

[DailyCorvid]

Are you on Discord already then? Great OK I will go and fish out my password, I still have an active account that we can use. It's probably got a bunch of other stuff on there from before - but you can safely "file" that stuff for later, or just ignore most of it if you prefer. I have a link to join, you just have to click on it and it will lead you to my Discord page and we can carry on talking there.

Discord fellowship room : https://discord.gg/rahVBCAf

Sounds to me like, if you are housebound most times anyway - a barge house might actually be perfect for you (if such a thing could be arranged). You could just have a maintenance guy board you once a week to check your safety forms off, maybe bring you some stuff - and then the seas are yours. A truly brilliant though, I have always loved the water too. But I don't swim so well! I might have to go and get lessons.

You might have rowed down your Canal longer than I have ever travelled on any boat!

 

[Desperate62]

No, I'm not on discord, I've not even downloaded it and I've no idea how to use it. And I take it you don't know much about boats, as barges are not seaworthy and they're hopelessly insecure, virtually transparent to noise and FAR too INSANELY HOT in the summer and far too cold in the winter, plus you can't have a washing machine onboard so you have to use launderettes which are a total no-go area for me, because once you're in there you're stuck there and anyone could come in who I can't stand or be trapped with, and launderettes are filthy. And if you live on a barge you can't stay in one place, you have to keep moving and you often have to use facilities which are filthy too, and barges cost an absolute fortune to run. And barges can only handle flat calm water and I love the swell and before health & safety cracked down the mersey ferries used to run in all manner of rough weather, and the mersey estuary gets well rough, and I used to go all the way down there just to ride it from 40-odd miles away. And there's loads of folk in small boats on youtube riding over big swells and surf etc. and river mouth bars which get well rough and I'd love to try it for myself, as I reckon I could but it's like wanting to join the fire brigade or military while stuck in a wheelchair with no legs or severe cognitive deficit. And I've been across the north sea from Hull to Rotterdam and Zeebrugge in the winter six times hoping it would be rough but it never was, instead all I got was made to suffer brutal torturing noise from other passengers so I had to stop going. And also could you please pray that no-one will catch this wretched virus from me and for anyone who might already have to be set free from it whoever or wherever they are.

 

[DailyCorvid]

I know absolutely nothing about boats I am afraid! All I can tell you is that they float on water and you ride in them. I do think they're cool though, I have spent about an hour on the things in my life and always enjoyed it. Once in Greece and once in Florida. Oh and I used to watch "Rosie And Jim" with my younger sister in the early 90's. Perhaps that is where I cultivated this pristine view of boat life?

Discord is fairly simple to use these days, it is about 5 clicks of a button away from being ready to go - just make yourself an account. Then click through this link below - and you will find my Discord waiting for you. Soon as you put a message down I will get a notification of it, and we can move our conversation there. I think instantaneous discussion is so much easier to get used to, and you can record voice clips if you get bored of typing. Most of the time I prefer that, just using 1-2 minute voice clips with a play button; seems a little more "human" to me.

Discord fellowship room : https://discord.gg/rahVBCAf

My tipple of choice is a strong Tea, I can barely survive without them. If you can get your Discord up and running this evening and it's not too late, or tomorrow morning then we can continue this discussion on there. And if you have any technical questions I will answer them on there. I don't see too many though, turns out they have really improved it since I last used it. Thank God, it used to have an awful look and feel! But it seems like it's pretty decent on there now. Who knows you may even decide you like it! I like the new look, so much simpler than it was.

I have been praying for you, both that your suffering is reduced but also that your confidence to share company with others is increased. God knows what He is doing, and if as you said it is a demon causing this virus - then He can also evict the little bugger from you. That's always in my mind, I see in future we can kick this annoying thing out! That's the priority goals. Anyway, that is for later! I have to get to the shop before it shuts or I will run out of milk and teabags. And that is a real drama for me! See you over there.

 

[Glen07]

No, I'm not on discord, I've not even downloaded it and I've no idea how to use it. And I take it you don't know much about boats, as barges are not seaworthy and they're hopelessly insecure, virtually transparent to noise and FAR too INSANELY HOT in the summer and far too cold in the winter, plus you can't have a washing machine onboard so you have to use launderettes which are a total no-go area for me, because once you're in there you're stuck there and anyone could come in who I can't stand or be trapped with, and launderettes are filthy. And if you live on a barge you can't stay in one place, you have to keep moving and you often have to use facilities which are filthy too, and barges cost an absolute fortune to run. And barges can only handle flat calm water and I love the swell and before health & safety cracked down the mersey ferries used to run in all manner of rough weather, and the mersey estuary gets well rough, and I used to go all the way down there just to ride it from 40-odd miles away. And there's loads of folk in small boats on youtube riding over big swells and surf etc. and river mouth bars which get well rough and I'd love to try it for myself, as I reckon I could but it's like wanting to join the fire brigade or military while stuck in a wheelchair with no legs or severe cognitive deficit. And I've been across the north sea from Hull to Rotterdam and Zeebrugge in the winter six times hoping it would be rough but it never was, instead all I got was made to suffer brutal torturing noise from other passengers so I had to stop going. And also could you please pray that no-one will catch this wretched virus from me and for anyone who might already have to be set free from it whoever or wherever they are.

Hey, sorry I haven’t checked in for a couple days. Sometimes I have ups and sometimes downs with my health. I’m so glad you are willing to give discord a shot. Like I said before I’m a better technically challenged but after a little bit of trial and error it’s really not too difficult. I’m glad you are reading the Gospels the funny thing is I was also reading Matthew and Mark this week. I’m happy you’re making the time to read bro. God bless.

 

[Desperate62]

I know absolutely nothing about boats I am afraid! All I can tell you is that they float on water and you ride in them. I do think they're cool though, I have spent about an hour on the things in my life and always enjoyed it. Once in Greece and once in Florida. Oh and I used to watch "Rosie And Jim" with my younger sister in the early 90's. Perhaps that is where I cultivated this pristine view of boat life?

Discord is fairly simple to use these days, it is about 5 clicks of a button away from being ready to go - just make yourself an account. Then click through this link below - and you will find my Discord waiting for you. Soon as you put a message down I will get a notification of it, and we can move our conversation there. I think instantaneous discussion is so much easier to get used to, and you can record voice clips if you get bored of typing. Most of the time I prefer that, just using 1-2 minute voice clips with a play button; seems a little more "human" to me.

Discord fellowship room : https://discord.gg/rahVBCAf

My tipple of choice is a strong Tea, I can barely survive without them. If you can get your Discord up and running this evening and it's not too late, or tomorrow morning then we can continue this discussion on there. And if you have any technical questions I will answer them on there. I don't see too many though, turns out they have really improved it since I last used it. Thank God, it used to have an awful look and feel! But it seems like it's pretty decent on there now. Who knows you may even decide you like it! I like the new look, so much simpler than it was.

I have been praying for you, both that your suffering is reduced but also that your confidence to share company with others is increased. God knows what He is doing, and if as you said it is a demon causing this virus - then He can also evict the little bugger from you. That's always in my mind, I see in future we can kick this annoying thing out! That's the priority goals. Anyway, that is for later! I have to get to the shop before it shuts or I will run out of milk and teabags. And that is a real drama for me! See you over there.

I can't drink tea any more, or anything but water, and I couldn't even dream of going anywhere so far too insanely HOT like greece or florida, as I sweat in only single figured temperatures as well as overcast. And I won't be rushing into installing anything new, that will take time, possibly later on sunday, but don't get your hopes up, I can't work at breakneck speed. And does it work like f'book messenger? I've used that before. And voice messaging is not a good idea with me as I also have speech problems too. And I don't think the demon is causing the virus, but that it might've caused it indirectly over several years by withholding what should've been obvious years ago and was most likely vitally important. And I don't find typing boring but infuriating as it's constantly ripped apart and ruined because of a whole catalogue of routine stunts that are constantly pulled on me whenever I try and type anything and it keeps me in a constant rage at the time. And I know the Lord certainly CAN cleanse and deliver me but it's a question of whether He will, that's always the problem with me, and I once tried going to a church where they use to hold miracle meetings, and they always said "don't come forward unless you're CERTAIN you'll get what you're seeking", or something like that, well how can I be certain when I can't even be confident? There's always that infuriating stumbling block that's constantly enforced and I'm somehow supposed to defeat it, well how can I when all such certainty is so ruthlessly withheld from me and kept out of reach? What am I supposed to do, and just about everything is done to constantly maintain that appalling situation, and I can never understand how folk in the Gospels could always have such great faith when they'd never met Jesus and had never been committed to Him.